Does the mother cat
have mixed feelings
about her kittens?
Does she feel
I know that,
with too much stress,
some mother cats
abandon their kittens.
Do they wonder:
the wrong decision?
Ambivalence. Is this the right choice? Sometimes I think I know. This past year, I've been an expert on thinking I know, and finding out that I don't, or anyway, that what felt right ends up feeling all wrong.
Sometimes I've ended up sure that what felt right, the right choice, the right direction to go in, was definitely wrong for me.
Heading in any direction isn't always better than not moving.
Though of course not moving is another movement.
For instance ... a very small instance. I have a new cat. I was sure, day after day, that I really wanted her. Then, when I decided that, yes, I would keep her instead of giving her away (when finally someone wanted her, an adult cat), well a day after that I was sure it was the wrong decision.
What is going on?
Why be so sure of one thing when soon after there is either uncertainty, or some other different certainty?
I suppose there is a lot more to say about this.
But i don't have any answer.
And this is all I had to say.
August 15, 2012
Blog on life, mixed feelings, ambivalence,
uncertainty, feeling unsure,
Diary blogs on ever changing feelings.
Big question: Is this the right choice?
To go from this blog on life to another,
a blog on loneliness,
This has been one blog on life.
For another, on emotion and motivation,